Paper Cuts

Of love and hate

2005-11-29T01:57:00.000+08:00

When love dies, what becomes of it? I used to believed that there is a neutral state, where no strong feelings exist. Or at least, I still want to believe that, but I cant. For the lost of love, I choose hate.

I hate him for leading me on. I hate him for giving me hope. I hate him for his looks, his smarts, his confidence, everything about him that made me liked him. And I hate him for everything that he had done for me.

You don't tell a girl that she's the best thing that happened to you and 4 hours later be at the pool side with another girl on your shoulder. Neither do you let the other girl believe that it's the first girl's fault and let the first girl be subjected to her interrogation. You also do not later try to befriendly to both girls and not do anything about the increasing tension between them. And you don't 'play' with 2 girls who live under the same roof.

But yet, you had done it all.... and choose neither of the girls... But it's not the reason I hate you. I hate you because on the day you told me that you have a girlfriend and I congratulated you, you said "I never expected you to laugh and be happy about it". For that, I hate you.

What makes you think you are so special? Why do you think I cant get over you? Bleh, that was the worst thing any guy I went out with had ever said to me.

But like Cyber-red, I thought I can forget and forgive.

Then it was 3 years till we met again. I thought everything is in the past. I thought we could be friends and move on with our lives. But yet again you provoked me by saying you cant imagine what kind of guy will fall for me. And what kind of guy I will end up with. You said you were curious, but for what? My relationships have nothing to do with you the moment you choose to betray my feelings. And you compared your girlfriend and me. How much we differ. How she was more gentle. How I am more ambitious. But does all those really matter to you? After so long, what else are you trying to prove? You are not doing any good but hurting my feelings more and more.

If I were to meet you now, I will still say 'hi'. But I will not be any friendlier than required for I still hate you. I can forgive and forget, only if you will let go of the past. Until then, I will continue to hate you.

So Cyber-red, I have a reason to say 'if my love ends, it will be hate'. I have had crushes but he was the first I felt so strongly about. Maybe, hopefully one day I will feel nothing for him, not love, not hate. Just nothing.

I look forward to that day.

A song for a very good friend

2005-11-26T22:58:00.000+08:00

Girl, I know you had it tough. But be strong. Think clear and be honest to yourself; it is the most important at this rough time. Take care

歌曲：记得
Title: Remember
歌手：张惠妹专辑：真实
By: A*Mei

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

Who remembers who was the one who said ‘I will love you forever’
(Loving) words in the past will be our pain in the future
It’s been too long, nobody remembers the initial tenderness
(Of us) Holding hands, promising to be together forever

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

We forgot how long we have been on this journey
The only thing that is clear in my heart is that one day, this will end
Let time tell the truth, although I am also afraid to know
Whether we will reminiscence (this love) as darkness falls

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

Who remembers who was the one who said ‘I will love you forever’
(Loving) words in the past will be our pain in the future
It’s been too long, nobody remembers the initial tenderness
(Of us) Holding hands, promising to be together forever

我们都累了却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等对方先说找分开的理由

We are both tired, without an option to backtrack
Two incurably lost hearts
Darling, why (did it become like this)?
Maybe you too, do not know (the reason)
Two loving people, waiting for the other to say a reason to leave/break-up

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

Who remembers when did our love begun to change
In you eyes and mine, we saw a different horizon/sky
(We have) Traveled too far, and finally reached a cross-road
Is this because you and I have conflicting dreams?

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

Who remembers who was the one who said ‘I will love you forever’
(Loving) words in the past will be our pain in the future
It’s been too long, nobody remembers the initial tenderness
(Of us) Holding hands, promising to be together forever
We held hands, promising to be together forever

I am so bored...

2005-11-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

I am so so so so bored. Yeah, I know I am repeating myself. Well, one exciting thing did happen over the past week: I got a job! Yes, I am finally employed! Thank you God! Bless everyone!.... But the excitement of that lasted only 2 days. Now I am dead bored...

Bf went to Thailand this morning for a 5-days trip, so I have noone to entertain me. I finished reading all the new books I bought; novels and magazines inclusive, I am done with all the vcd's dvd's I have, in fact watched them more than twice. I guess I can study for my up-coming JLPT and read up the 'Principles of Independence' for my new job, but I am lazy. So bleh, nothing to do :P

Hence, I update my blog that was neglected for so long... But I am not a person who writes, ask any of my friends and they'll tell you all about my writting tendencies, or lack of it.... End of update... hehe *stupid evil grin* :D

Another quiz... hehe

2005-11-15T15:11:00.000+08:00

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This is some name modifier from http://monster.namedecoder.com/. Go try yours! :)

Quiz... for fun :)

2005-11-15T02:01:00.000+08:00

You are Form 5, Dragon: The Weaver.

"And The Dragon seperated the virtuous from
the sinful. He tore his eyes from his sockets
and used them to peer into the souls of those
on trial to make a judgement. He knew that
with endless knowledge came endless
responsibility."

Some examples of the Dragon Form are Athena
(Greek), St. Peter (Christian), and Surya
(Indian).
The Dragon is associated with the concept of
intelligence, the number 5, and the element of
wood.
His sign is the crescent moon.

As a member of Form 5, you are an intelligent and
wise individual. You weigh options by looking
at how logical they are and you know that while
there may not always be a right or wrong
choice, there is always a logical one. People
may say you are too indecisive, but it's only
because you want to do what's right. Dragons
are the best friends to have because they're
willing to learn.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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stupid &^% #%@^ finance

2005-09-13T17:11:00.000+08:00

i know job-hunting is never easy. every interview, the hr people will try their best to drill you on y the hell muz they pay u *&^&% k per month. but, i know they are juz doing their job. it's for the company's benefit.. ya... ya...

what i cant stand is company's with hr head of department so stupid and so insensitive as this stupid *&%#-ing finance company tt i went to interview with on monday. below is a snippet of the stupidity that totally set my blood to boil:

me: *walks into the HR HOD office*
HR: y aren't u wearing a jacket?
me: *shocked* well, a jacket or not is not going to affect my capabilities to work..
HR: nono, u cant wear like tt to an interview *scanning me from head to toe then shake head*. u noe, u look like an auditor.. nope, worse, u look like u are applying to be a clerk. u are not here to apply to be a clerk.
me: of all the interviews i went to, this attire is acceptable. anyway, i don't see your people wearing a jacket.
HR: they are not looking for a job, but u are. so u must wear a jacket.... u mean noone else told u to wear a jacket? i cant believe this!
HR: U noe, SMU girls who came for interview all wear a jacket. they are so professional! and u didn't wear make-up, did u?
me: i am wearing make-up....
HR: u are? *scrutinise my face* then i cant see it! i cant even see you lipstick! u noe, the SMU girls wore such impeccable make-up even when they came for just internship interview... tt's bcos SMu trains them since year 1. they dun juz study u noe!
me: *stares at him in disbelief.... i realli dunno wut to say to such a ridiculous man*
HR: ..... do u want to work as a trainee since u do not haf the experience required to be a senior officer?
me: if there is the opportunity to learn, i will consider it
HR: oh, ok.... but our trainee program only starts next year!

i walked out after the that. what the hell! if i dun qualify for the position, then dun call me for the interview la! even if they onli found out tt i dun qualify when i went to the interview, then juz tell la! dun insult me then beat ard the bush to tell me tt the position is onli available, like next year!! and i believe there is nothing wrong wif my attire. i'm going for an office job interview, not a pageant interview! and y muz he always compare me to SMU girls? SMU girls got gif him under-table service issit???

i swear i will never apply to that company again. i will also never do any business with that company ever again. and for those of u who do not agree with me, then good luck dealing with an all-appearance no substance finance company.

wish me luck for the next interview. may nonsensicality be laid to rest.

Deep in slump

2005-09-07T22:18:00.000+08:00

it's been ages since i updated anything. damn, i feel so depressed now i think i will not attempt to make this a 'readable' english entry. if u understand, good for u, if not, i just dun care. meant for me to vent, not for u to read.

job hunting was never good. i had like several rejections up till today, and it's v demoralizing. well, not tt i like the job or i m in desperate need for money. it's juz that i have never felt like such a failure in life. now that i think of it, my life had been good, very good in fact. i mean, what else can anyone ask for? supportive, well-to-do family: check. scholarship: check. attractiveness: check (i was nominated for pageant, some time ago). education: check. friends: check. loving boyfriend: check. now, it's only career left. and is it making me mad. i dont like this feeling. it's so unfamiliar and yet, somehow i think i m deserving of it. i was enthusiatic, but since i was not really hard-up for the job, i sometimes talk without thinking. but hey, they asked for my opinion, rite? i m entitled to my opinion, rite? RIGHT... and i end up being thought as too opinionated. damn it.

i really hope i can find a job soon. rejection is doing me serious mental and emotional harm. i hate feeling like a failure. hate it hate it hate it. i would rather do a job i dont like than to feel this way. at least, it will be the task's fault, not mine. yeah, it's childish of me to blame, but i cant help it. i can stand being wrong, but i cant stand being left behind. i feel so helpless. everything i had done have been smooth-sailing, but this. i hate this.

and worse, there is this specific person tt i see every week who gives me this disapproving look everytime i see her. i wish she would disappear, but nooooo, she's here to stay. i hate it even more that she got her stable job from her scholarship bond and is all entitled to give me even more disapproving looks since i am unemployed. i seriously do not know what's wrong with her. why does she thinks that she's better than me? why give me the disapproving look? in fact, i think she's more of looking down at me, as if i am of a lower life form. i hate it. i cant fight it when i m so helpless now. i want to fight it. i want to do better than her. maybe she'll stop the disapproving look. i dunno if it will work, but at least i will try my best. that is, if she doesnt drive me mad first.

i hate her. i hate job-hunting. i hate this moment of my life.

My favorite song... currently hehe

2005-07-29T15:09:00.000+08:00

童话
歌手:光良专辑:童话

忘了有多久
再没听到你
对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿 (要/会) 变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

Fairy Tale

By: Guang Liang

I forgot how long it was
Since (I last heard) you talked about your favorite story
I thought until I started to get confused
Did I do something wrong again?

Crying, you told me that fairy tales are lies
That I couldn’t be your prince
Maybe you won’t understand
That from the moment you said you love me
The stars in my sky lit up

I am willing (want/will) to become the angel you loved in your fairy tale
Spread my arms as wings to protect you
You must believe
Believe that we will be like the fairy tales
Where the ending is always happily ever after
Let’s write our ending together

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Ok, so the translation is not 100% accurate, but I think I tried my best. I think it's pretty decent, so I'm happy. Hehe :)

Bloggin' for charity

2005-07-22T16:00:00.000+08:00

Cyber-red and I have decided to contribute to the wonderful society that we are living in. We are doing this through, *drums roll* 24-hours blogging event! Anyway, we will be blogging on Cyber-red's blog because I am lazy... and I think her blog can garner more hits which can translate to more donations for PAWS Malaysia (tt's the organization we choose). So tune into Cyber-red's blog at http://www.cyber-red.blogspot.com/ on Saturday, August 6th from 9pm onwards to support us. Thank you! :)

To know more about the 24-hour blogging event, please go to http://www.blogathon.org

Edited: the old post said 'August 6th from 9am onwards'... this is a mistake. It's supposed to be August 6th from 9PM onwards. Sorry for the confusion. Thanks Cyber-red for pointing it out. :)

A taste of the 1970's

2005-07-22T15:44:00.000+08:00

Have you ever thought how it felt like to live in the 1970's? Where there is no computer, no internet and yes, no automatic electrical appliances... ok, maybe they do have some but its definitely not very commonplace. Why am I writing this? Well, because of a washing machine. An appliance that is supposed to make my life more convenient, or so I thought.

The washing machine in question is found in my flat, which I moved in not too long ago. Being a lazy bum that I am, I had been bringing my laundry to the laundry mart for cleaning and handwash those flimsy fabric most of the time. And today, thinking that I will be a good girl and learn how to use the new machine, gave me quite a shock. That damn thing is NOT automatic!!! Means it's manual. Means I have to push the dial for wash, for drain, for rinse, for spin and whatever else. Nevermind, I won't let this get me down...

First up, fill water... manually. Fine on the tap. Next wash, easy. Next drain.... but hey! where is the rinse button?? In the end, i re-wash with no soap as a rinse. Repeat twice. Lastly spin... wth, i hafta move the clothes from one compartment to the next. Then close the plastic lid and push dial again to spin? How the heck am I supposed to know how long to spin??? Ah, anyhow do la...

5 mins past. 5 dreadful minutes. I prayed hard that my clothes were not shredded by the dumb thing. 4 mins.... 3..... 2..... 1..... Yay!! done! Clothes in one piece! yes! I am a genius!! Hahahahahahahhaha, with this machine, I can do world domination!!!

And there goes my taste of old fashion 1970's...

Zoo? Kids? Parents????

2005-06-05T01:36:00.000+08:00

Yeah, it's been a month since my school life ended. Life's been good, no worries, no stress, eat all day, sleep all nite... yeah, life is good. Although I do feel kinda guilty for not sending out resumes like how I am supposed to do, I also rejoice the fact that I can do anything I like without having to think about that piece of work due tomorrow. And I make maximum use of this, of course ;)

To start off, I went nearly every place that I possibly want to go on this island, but nothing compares to my visit to the zoo today. It was such an eye opener! Can you believe that the superrrr long queue we (my bf n I) saw was not a ticket queue but a free ice-cream queue? Well, not very surprising if the number of visitors were high, but guess what? There were NOBODY queueing for the tickets! You literally juz waltz up to the counter and get ur tix, while what seems like the entire country's population is queueing for a FREE ice-cream! This is ridiculous!

What seemed even more ridiculous is how some parents let their kids run even more free than the animals in the open-concept zoo! The kids not only feed the animals with unhealthy food like potato chips, they also tease the animals by knocking on their glass screens and panels! Well, I wouldn't be surprised if the tiger or leopard really did break the glass and bite the kids. And what were the parents doing? Nothing, NOTHING! If something did happen, they will blame the zoo, blame the animals. Then the poor thing will have to be put to sleep based on 'safety' reasons. If there were to be any 'safety' measures to be taken, it should be to protect the animals from humans, instead of the other way round.

This reminds me of yesterday when I went shopping at Orchard. There was this mother who kept saying 'She pushed my daughter ah! She pushed my daughter!' very loudly in the middle of the walkway. Hello, if she was so concerned about her daughter being pushed, she should look after her child instead of letting her play tag on the walkway while she complains to her friend! What if the kid really did knock into someone? Blame it on the passerby who was just walking and minding his own business?? She should blame herself for not teaching her kids not to play tag in the middle of a busy street. There is a place for everything, tag = garden/field, stupid.

I always thought I loved kids, but now I changed my mind... no wait, I still love kids. The ones I hate are the stupid parents.

The Beginning of an End

2005-05-05T01:08:00.000+08:00

Today is my first day as a graduate. Officially, I am still a student since it's 2 more months to my convocation, but I do consider myself an unemployed now. Sighz, 2 more months to the end of my school days...

The paper yesterday was alright, though it could have been better. I spent the last 20mins looking around the examination hall (I finished a wee bit earlier than the allocated time). It's a look that I am familiar with for the past 17 years of my education, and also the look that I am bidding farewell to. Everybody were still frantically flipping pages, I should too if I want to check my answers, but what the heck, I thought getting a good last look of the exam hall was more important. I'm such a nerd. I mean, who in the world will feel nostalgic for an exam hall? But to me, it was my life. That was the place that my 'fate' was determined. From primary school till that moment, the exam hall was a place of sweat and blood, the scared land where the die of life was cast. And yesterday, it all ended. It no longer matters.

Today, I'm a freed soul. Far from the clutches of classes, homework, readings, research and also exams. I should be happy but yet I am uncertain of what I'm feeling. I'm not sad, but yet I am depressed. There is a feeling of emptiness within me, as I was robbed off something important, like a purpose in life. I wake up, not knowing what to do. I am going to sleep now not knowing what I did today. Time seemed to fly away meaninglessly. I have always looked forward to this day, thinking that I will be happy and carefree, but now I am burdened by nothingness.

Haiz, maybe all I need now is a job. Anyone care to gimme one? ;)

2005-04-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

There is something incredibly wrong with me. You see, I'm in the midst of packing to move out of this flat that I hate so much but yet, I feel very sad. I feel like crying. WHY???

Is it because I need to look through all my stuff that each carry their own emotional value to me? Or is it purely due to all the hard work needed to sort things in order and into their respective boxes? Or I just needed to shed a few tears because this is farewell?

This entire packing thingy is really getting onto me. I feel like it signifies the end of my life as a student (although I still have 2 more papers to go, but somehow, this feels like an intended end). Looking through my stuff, I felt happy. I had accomplished much as a student. Hosting exchange programs, planning orientations, so-called 'leading' the students' population, and being the 'in' crowd. I was 'the' person to know, to hang out with. But this changed when I entered my third year. I realised that if I don't work hard, I will slipped to be like everyone else; the average student. I was scared, so I worked hard, very hard, to the extent I forego all my extra-curricular activities and became the 'invisible' person in school. Noone knew I existed, but my hardwork paid off, or so I thought. I got myself into the honors program only to realise that I did not have what it takes to be an Honors student. Again, I needed to work more than anyone else, getting lost more frequently than everyone else. I had help from various people and after a gruelling period, it was over. And now, here I am, staring at my photos, my notes, my textbooks, all my belongings which very existence is a proof of me, of who I am and what I did. But I still feel sad.

Maybe it's because I know within that pile, there will be something that I need to throw. I can't carry that much luggage with me when I move, so I discard some of my belongings along the way. It feels as though I am throwing my memories along with these items. I don't want to throw them away, but I can't keep them forever. It's called space optimizing, I think. I am supposed to keep only what I need and of value to me. But they are all of value to me, and I still need to dispose off them. I guess it's something that I have to do...

Life is like this, isn't it? We can't keep everything that we want, so we have to let go. Sometime we do not want to let go, but we must. This is exactly my situation. I don't want to discard any of my belongings, but I must. It's not a choice. I hate this...

Damn, I still need to pack... maybe I'll leave the tissue out of the box for my tear as I go about it :(

I want my game...

2005-04-14T03:18:00.000+08:00

I never had much luck with technology. Whether it started out OK or not, I will somehow manage to screw it up, or it will screw itself up! Then it will just correct itself again! It's just plain amazing.

Take for example this blog. Upon signing up and posting my 1st post, blogger server went down for 1 1/2 day. OK, it might not be my fault the server went down, but it's still a fact tt it went down. I mean, how many people will be so 'lucky' as to have server down upon sign-up? But blogger 'saved' itself and all is well now. Thank you Blogger's team!

Example 2, my handphone. There were several times where ALL the buttons of my only a year old handphone refused to work. This included the power button, so it basically means I just cant do anything! Luckily, after fiddling with it a little, it sort of 'healed' itself. Phew!

Well, the situation just didn't seem to improve. Yesterday I started downloading a 890MB file through bittorrent. After leaving my laptop on for quite awhile, I thought I should stop the download and resume downloading today. And to my horror, the download rate fell from 30KBps yesterday to 1KBps today!! It's so shocking! My remaining download time ballooned from 5hours to 156 hours!! OMG!!

Since most of the time my jinxed problem will solve itself, I really hope the download rate will also improve by itself when I resume download. I am really looking forward to the game contained in the file, since it's good (I played it before, until I lost the game client). Hmm, my only worry: I will not have the time to play after spending all my free time downloading only! :(

For my friends...

2005-04-13T03:08:00.000+08:00

I know this is a bit late, but since I have the photo now, might as well share it :)

This is me, after working non-stop for 3 days and 2 nights without sleep, to finish my thesis. Yeap, it's that black book in the picture. I was soooo tired! I nearly fell asleep while eating my breakfast after finishing the thing!

Heartache.... Headache....

2005-04-13T02:01:00.000+08:00

Nono, don't get the wrong idea. My relationship with my boy is fine. The heartache stems from another matter... money. The problem is not lack of money, but more of my unwillingness to spend so much for something less than satisfactory. Well, the matter goes back to 2 days ago...

HM and I were (and still are) looking for flats to move into once our tenancy for our current lodging ends, which is some time in end of this month. We had quite a few disappointing attempts at securing a place, due to the competition for flats in the area that we are interested in. Then, at our darkest moments of despair, HM found a government flat that is located within our area of choice and the asking rent looks pretty good, so we contacted the (gov) agency and arranged to view the flat, at which we were told that we need to pay $50 for that service. We were slightly shocked at having to pay just to view the place as industry practise is free viewing. But the shock doesn't end there...

We were later (but before the flat viewing) that the flat was unfurnished. So we thought, 'ok, no furniture, but should have shower, lights and ceiling fans, rite?'. Well, wrong! Upon viewing the place today, we found nothing! Okok, I am exaggerating... there were lights and shower head... but lights and shower head only. No fan, no grills (as in the protective metal bars on windows), no water heater (shower), no seat toilet (only 1 squat toilet), no nothing. Plus, despite the convenient location, the environment of the flat was not exactly, in my terms, satisfactory. Why? Because, for one, the building is over 30 years old. Although the walls were given a new coat of paint, there are bound to be other wear-and-tear problems that will surface. Like piping, ceiling, wirings etc. Secondly, the location was good but the area was dilapitated. The building was dirty and untidy, with sweet wraps, cigratte butts, onion/garlic peels, the usual street garbage, strewn over the place. Thirdly, it's a shop house with a traditional grocery store below. This means eggs, onion/garlic (explains the peels), sugar, grains (rice etc) will be available in abundance. This also means more mouse/rats, cockroaches, ants, u get the idea. So I was not very pleased with the place.

Well, I can ignore all these factors if the rent is cheap. I mean, you get what you pay, right? Wrong again! The place will cost $790 per month, and I will also need to pay the government $53.70 service charge, for some reasons that I have totally no comprehension. This means a total of $843.70 per month. I will also need to buy furniture, averaging $600 for the bare necessities, i.e. 1 bed, 1 mattress, 1 study table, 1 wardrobe and 1 book shelf (hey, I AM a student). This does not include fixing of water heater ($150, plus installation) and fan ($90). I will also need washing machine (cheapest ard $300) . Fridge (cheapest at $300 also) and TV (averaging $200) will be a luxury, so no TV... On top of this, there are stamp fees and government tax that need to be paid, both $84 each. Working out the sum, the total annual expenditure on the flat will be $12,332.40. This means a whooping $513.85 per person (2 of us sharing) per month! And this is without utilties!! Adding estimated utilities based on current usage, it might be around $50 per person per month, totalling an individual montly rent of *drums roll* $563.85!!! It's a steep hike from my current lodging expenditure of $450 per person per month (rent and utilities only, since this place is fully furnished when I rented it). It was at this point my heart started to bleed...

I thought by moving away from undergrad hotspots, I might be able to save in rent, but I was proven wrong. I thought that renting from the government will be cheaper than private owners, I was proven wrong again. And lastly, I though HM will be sensible enough to conclude that this unfurnished place will be too expensive, but she was so enthusiatic about it, it took me quite some time convincing her otherwise. Luckily she was understanding about my financial ability, or the lack of it. If this was to be my thesis, I would have failed...

Ok, so we are not going to rent that place. No more heartache. But in comes headache... we gotta find another place soon! End of April is approaching, no time, no time... *panic attack*.. AAAAaaaaaAAAaaaa!!!!!

Wish me luck. Thanks :)

Never Judge Food by Appearance

2005-04-11T03:25:00.000+08:00

Spork hunting can be quite energy-draining... anyway, tea-break was a real good treat! A classic donut with milk coating. Although it looks like mucus over landmine-blown rocks, it tastes heavenly.. hehe :)

Spoon + Fork = SPORK???

2005-04-11T02:07:00.000+08:00

A few weeks ago, my sister called me and told me she saw a bizarre piece of eating utensil on a cartoon. When ask what it was, all I was told was it's a 'spork', i.e. a spoon and a fork at the same time! After much prying, she finally sent me a screenshot of 'spork' from the anime, and it looks like this...

I vaguely remembered seeing something like that at some Japanese shop, so I promised her that I will get her a 'spork', after which I conveniently forget all about it until today. So now, weeks later, I finally moved my lazy bum to search for 'spork'.

First stop was Daiso, a Japanese $2 shop in IMM. Upon reaching, I slowly walked towards the utensils section, feeling very confident that 'spork' will be there. And then my heart stopped... there was NO SPORK!!! I scrutinized the shelf, standing, squating, kneeling but NO SPORK!! And then, my bf pointed above my head and guess what? there lie a row of 'spork's, hanging shinily above my squating body... ah man, this is so embarrassing.. I searched everywhere but above my head... how stupid...

Anyway, this is how the real spork looks like...

In the end, I bought 2 'spork's for lil sis. Oh ya, despite the funky name my sis gave it, 'spork's true name is a less than glamorous one, called melon spoon. How boring... :P

For the love of education...

2005-04-08T00:44:00.000+08:00

Ever wonder what is the whole point of education? It makes sense to learn basic arithmatics, language etc, but why is there the need to pursue anything higher than that if it is irrelevant to the actual world that you will embark to upon your graduation?

Like, what is the whole point of doing a thesis?? The gruesome data collection, the non-conclusive analysis and the vocabulary-draining report writing are too terrible for anyone alive. It's amazing that there are some who are still sane after going through those (esp those doctorate people... respect!). I, on the other hand, barely survived, even with tremendous help from those around me.

I mean, back to the point of doing a thesis, I really do not get how it will help me in my future. Knowing how to collect data will not promise me my favored job, neither will data crunching. It's not like if you want to become a plumber, fixing 10 thousand pipes might make you the best plumber around. Running regressions on 10 thousand companies will not make you the best anything, if there is anything at all. It will only say something about some historical data. And the worst part is, it's only valid for that particular sample. How sickening...

Why did I do it despite my 'love' for it? Well, one thing is, it's a graduation requirement. The other is maybe, even with the slimmest chance, I might get 100 bucks more than my peers, in terms of starting pay. Ok, there is nothing else, I think.. oh wait, there is something... I learnt that my tenses don't agree with each other, which give rise to this blog. Maybe I'll learn to correct them if I write more. Maybe not. This might very well be another so-called 'thesis' for me.

Oh crap... nothing no more...